My Love & my Laughter Medicine❤️

They say love happens when you least expect it and this time I felt it. Though I can't put that feeling into perfect words.

For years, I have always walked one step behind when it came to love. Not because I stopped believing in it, but because my first relationship back in 2018 left a deeper mark. Something inside me changed after that. It was like a switch turned off and my heart forgot the feeling and my mind stopped hoping.

Once bitten, twice shy.... maybe more than twice.

Recently after a whole year of a not so great experience on a matrimonial site, I shifted to a dating app with absolutely zero expectations.

Most days it was just empty swipes and conversations that died before they even began. I was clear about what I wanted, but honestly, I was bored of the endless swipes and meaningless chats.

And then, suddenly, I came across this one profile. A message popped up "You have a charming smile." My first instinct was to ignore it as it felt cheesy. One of those lines men casually throw around. I almost ignored it. But for some reason, I happened to reply. God knows what made me reply.

We spoke. It felt normal. And then he said something I had never heard upfront from a guy before "Iam a simple guy."

Not bragging, not trying too hard. It was just simple, direct and strangely reassuring. Those three words made me take one step forward without realising it.

Soon we shifted to WhatsApp, and he asked if we could meet for lunch. I had mixed feelings, but then I thought of agreeing to it.

For the first time ever, I went to meet a guy without overthinking, without my usual checklist, without that guarded wall I always carry around. But the nervous girl inside me was definitely alive.. my warm body temperature, anxious breathing. I still remember calling him (our very first call) saying, I will be there in five minutes, while silently trying to slow my heartbeat.

And then he entered my car. We went for lunch. The music was loud, the table too big. I kept leaning forward to hear him. After a moment of hesitation, I asked if he could sit next to me so I could hear him better. I still don't know what gave me the courage. He smiled and shifted next to me keeping a gentle distance like he understood my boundaries without a single word spoken.

And then the conversation began.

Iam an introvert. Usually, after 30 minutes, my words start drying up. But with him, I sat there for nearly four hours very comfortable and at ease. I don't remember everything we spoke but I do remember the feeling. A voice inside me whispering, "He is genuine and I can trust this."

It's been barely five months since that day but his presence feels like something my heart already knew. 

There is a sense of comfort and belonging that I haven't felt in years.

I don't know what the future holds for us. Life is unpredictable and Love even more.
But I do know this that I chose him and I want to build something meaningful and real with him.

So here's to my LLM, my NiRo, the boy who reminded my heart how to feel again❤️